On this day for thanks, I find myself a bit reflective. As you all know, this has been extraordinary year for me. I like to think of at least 10 things I'm thankful for. This year, I have too many to count. I am so lucky to have a wonderful husband and an amazing little girl. When I look at her, I know that this is what I am meant for. Ben is truly more than I could ever have asked for in a mate. He is kind, loving and such a wonderful father. Not to mention the fact that the man is funny. He can make me laugh at the drop of a hat.
I am so grateful for my family. I can't imagine getting through this last year without any of them. My mom has been such a wonderful person to bounce ideas off of, or to complain to. She's been a source of sanity for me in this crazy crazy year. My relationship with my stepmother is on the mend. Something that has been a long time coming. As a result, my relationship with my father and my siblings is much stronger. This means more to me than I could ever explain to anyone. I am also extremely lucky to have such a wonderful extended family. My Aunt Carol, who is also my godmother, has been a wonderful source of information and love this year. I know if I have a question, I can call her and she'll have the answer. Not to mention all the tireless hours she put into altering my wedding dress. My Aunt Jean is also a wonderful influence in my life. I don't think she realizes how much she means to me. I know that if I ever need an impartial opinion, a word of advice, or just an ear or a shoulder to cry on, she's there for me. My cousin Donna and her daughter Audrey are other wonderful family members in my life. Donna put so much time and effort into making our reception beautiful. Not to mention her hand in getting Grandma to and from the wedding and reception. Audrey is like my little sister. I love that girl so much. She's such a wonderful, smart and funny preteen. She is a wonderful babysitter and I'm so glad that Adelae will have Audrey in her life.
My Grandmother...I can't say enough about her. She is such an amazing woman. I have learned so much from her. She is patient and kind (except when you wake her up at night :) ) I try to model myself after her, knowing full well that I'll never be the woman she is. If I can be half the woman she is, I'll be happy.
I am thankful for my friends. This has been a traumatic year for me and friendships. I've lost friends that I thought were true friends, but I've gained so much more from the friends that have stuck by me. Brandon and Danielle have been my greatest champions this year. I love them so much. I don't see or talk to either of them as much as I want to, but when we do chat it's as if we just saw each other yesterday.
It's impossible for me to list everyone and everything that I'm thankful for this year, but this is a good start. To everyone that I didn't mention, thank you. Thank you for your love and support. Ben, Adelae and I are so lucky to have you all in our lives. I'm giving you all giant hugs right now. I only hope that everyone has so many wonderful people to be thankful for.
Saturday, November 17, 2007
I am tried and true Buckeye fan. I hate that I have to watch all the games by myself. :( I also hate the big 10 network, but that's a subject for another day. I'm so happy that Ohio State won today. Adelae and I watched the whole game. Well, she napped and I watched the game...but still. She loves the song "Hang On Sloopy." Everytime I sing it, she dances. It's pretty cute to watch. The win today should quiet all those people that think OSU didn't deserve to be #1. HOORAY!!!!!
Posted by Shaun at 3:27 PM
Monday, November 12, 2007
As I sit here and type this, I am listening to my husband sing to my daughter while giving her a bath. I am such a lucky woman to have such a wonderful man. He truly enjoys the time he spends with our little girl. And she truly enjoys all the attention she gets from her daddy. She is such a daddy's girl. When he comes home from work and he sees Adelae, his whole face lights up. The same goes for her. When she sees him, she's all smiles. It's really wonderful. Apparently our daughter is a big fan of '80's rock. He's now singing Tesla to her. How funny! :) I can hear her laughing and giggling. I think I want to go see this first hand. Have a great night! :)
Posted by Shaun at 8:14 PM
Thursday, November 8, 2007
As I begin the process of changing my name, I find it's much more difficult than I had thought. I love my husband, and am very proud to be his wife but it's still strange. It's strange to think that after 29 years I will no longer be a Wannemacher. I feel like I'm losing part of my identity. Despite it's many letters and all the hand cramps I get whan I have to sign more than one document, I like my last name. In the small town where I come from, it means something to be a Wannemacher. I wonder if other women feel the same way when they change their last name. I'm sure I'm not alone. I had considered hypenating my last name. Then I wrote it out. Can you imagine signing Wannemacher-Collins every time? Neither could I. I just sort of feel as if I've lost some important part of myself. I've always been an advocate of women changing their last name. I always thought "what's the big deal?" I think I get it now. I think I may be having some sort of minor identity crisis. I don't feel any different than I did yesterday, but suddenly I'm a whole new person....or at least the same old person with a different name. It's such a strange feeling. I can't quite describe it. However, it will be nice for all of us to have the same name. It really makes us feel more like a family. I know Ben is glad that I'm (almost) officially a Collins. I think he was worried that I was having second thoughts or something. I kept telling him it was a little too late to be having second thoughts about being his wife! As I slowly begin to get used to the idea of shedding one last name and adopting another, I'm optimistic. I mean, who is this Shaun Collins? I suppose she can be anything I want her to be!
Posted by Shaun at 7:18 AM